My husband Sean, 56 yrs old, funny, caring, always had a smile, loved by many, took his own life on the 25th Feb 2019, our world has fallen apart, my heart has been smashed into tiny bits, no warning signs, happy as ever on the morning, took our dog out, I went off to work to return to find him, I walked into find him after work and that image will be forever in my mind, everytime I close my eyes, I really don't know what to feel, the what ifs and why will never be answered and the pain will never go away, I've never felt anything like this ever,